A free bird … my journey to college
[The following article was written by me on August 29, 2011]
This being my first blog, I would like to take you through with me in ‘My Journey’ before coming to RGIIT.
As the train was signaled ‘green’ and it started to move, I could feel my heart thumping as if it will come out any second, I could feel myself trembling, not with fear but with anxiety, anxiety as to what NEXT?? I went through a gamut of feelings and among the hoi polloi, I could see my Papa, waving at me with an expression I had never seen before on his face. I wasn’t sure how to react, what to say, what to take from this except one thing that ‘I am a free bird’ now! I knew it’s time to leave my cozy parents nest and take a flight into the world. At this moment, my whole 18 years flashed before my eyes! …and in this blog post I will describe the range of sensations generated in that journey..hope you will find it interesting..and will get to know me better…
I remembered my mother telling me that I was born when she was writing up her PhD thesis and people around used to say that I will also go for higher studies. Well, I don’t know about that but I always had this pressure of outperforming all my sisters since I was the youngest among the four siblings. As a kid I always had someone or the other to help me with things. I started to think of all the love and affection my sisters had given me while I was growing.
My eldest sister, Neeti di, being 8 years older than me, never ever did she scold me. It’s from her that I inherit my love for music. ‘Hotel California’ by ‘Eagles’, I know a cliched one, but was the first song, listening to which at the age of 10, I felt an urge to start learning guitar to an extent that I decided to take guitar as a subject in my High school. Not everyone in my family was happy with this decision but Neeti di and Papa defended me and I continued with my decision and fared very well in Board exams! I can’t thank Neeti di enough for gifting me with this wonderful gift for life ‘MUSIC’!!! Thinking of which I turned to see if my guitar was still with me..the guitar Neeti Di had gifted me on my 16th Birthday!
I remember, how unhappy my Mini Di (the second one, six years elder) was, at this move of Neeti Di. She was arguing that I might not concentrate on my studies after being gifted with this guitar! This might give a very negative picture of Mini di, but she has always been an inspirational figure for me. Since childhood, she has been my friend, philosopher and guide! Although, I have to admit, she is the only one in this life that I am always scared of. But had it not been for her scoldings, I wouldn’t have been on this journey to Allahabad. She always inspired me to do well by setting an example herself. She is now a Gates Scholar at the University of Cambridge and thinking this, my heart fills up with pride and inspiration at the same time. Although, I find it difficult at times to carry this baggage of performing well because all my sisters have done so well but at the same time, it keeps me going… to strive to be the best! While I was thinking of Mini di, I could imagine her frowning face indicating “OK till now, but get ready for the next fight!!” That’s my Mini Di!
Picturing this, I could also see Chintu (di, I hate to call her di..she is only 5 years 10 months older that me) peeping from behind and making goofy faces. Although, I hate to admit this now, but since I was leaving home that day, I did realize how close we were..always fighting, mocking at each other..but wouldn’t go anywhere without each other. I had always seen a best friend in her, as well as my best critic! She would find fault in everything and anything I do but at the end of the day I knew she loved me and I hate to say this, that I love her toooo…
Thinking about all this as Allahabad was nearing, I realized that I have forgotten to take small idols of Ganesh ji and Shivji to worship which Mini di had strictly asked me to carry! Ooops! But on second thoughts, I realized, I have never seen God, which people always talk about..I closed my eyes to ask for forgiveness but my parents smiling figure came to my mind..and there I knew..my Parents are my God! Sounds cliched but it’s true for everyone!
I opened my eyes and I saw the big yellow board on the platform reading ALLAHABAD, I had reached my destination, my new home for the next four years. With a mixture of feelings, I took my bag and guitar and stepped on the land of ‘Triveni Sangam’, the confluence of the holy rivers Ganges and Yamuna, and the ancient Sarasvati River!
Ok before I say anything further…It’s quite late at night now and I sign off for today! This being said, I would take the liberty of inviting you all to share experiences like this, if you have any or have anything in your mind after reading this..feel free to jot it down as comments below! They are most welcome and will be appreciated!
P.S. My next blog was supposed to be about my life at RGIIT but in the wake of the current political imbroglio, my next blog covers a very important issue! The issue of corruption which is entrenched so deeply in every walk of our lives! So keep an eye for that!